November 2011
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September 2010
1 post
This is where I am right now...
I thought that by now we’d be in Liddypool & worrying about what movie we’d be watching tonight. Nope! Stupid car died (dunno how many of y’all read about this) so ALL the finances had to be rearranged for that. >:( Anyway, it’s becoming obvious that only way to go right now is West Texas (the waiting list for Americans trying to obtain British citizenship is well...
July 2010
1 post
Tumblbox?
Screw a buncha tumblbox… I like Tumbly!
June 2010
1 post
Cool!
Palm finally has a Tumblr client! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
April 2010
2 posts
Oddness on my mind today...
I’ve been reading the book Please Kill Me… I’ve also read England’s Dreaming. I’ve decided that had I been aware (I was alive, but only 8 - 12) at that time I would have been much more comfortable with the English punk scene than the American one. The American one seems to have been filled with just absolutely ugly, filthy, scummy junkies. Don’t get me wrong,...
The little things...
We cooked, we went to the movies, we visited friends, we argued a bit (lol, what would love be without fights?), we renewed our love physically, mentally and spiritually; I’m now here alone again and he’s on the other side of the world again. I’m tired everybody, completely tired. I’ve had a couple of folks tell me they were worried I’d gone to Iraq in his backpack or...
January 2010
3 posts
Yer Blues - The Beatles
Yes I’m lonely wanna die Yes I’m lonely wanna die If I ain’t dead already Ooh girl you know the reason why. In the morning wanna die In the evening wanna die If I ain’t dead already Ooh girl you know the reason why. My mother was of the sky My father was of the earth But I am of the universe And you know what it’s worth I’m lonely wanna die If I ain’t dead...
Fuck!
So today Michael’s “brother” and his mother and one of our “adopted” kids came by the apartment. It was lovely talking & laughing for the first time in………. I don’t even know how long it’s been. We drank chai lattes and chatted for hours. I sometimes like the little diversions from missing Michael but once they’re over and done...
December 2009
6 posts
Can’t sleep? No way! Not me! >:(
Current
Got to talk to Michael today, he’s not the extremely emotional type but I could hear pain in him as we talked. Selfishly, I felt better knowing he suffers too… is that completely wicked of me?
He usually shrugs it all off by saying he needs to take care of the girls and me and I need to just accept that. He’s stopped trying that so much or at least when he does say it, his tone...
The Killing Moon (reminds me of him for some...
under blue moon I saw you
so soon you’ll take me
up in your arms
too late to beg you
or cancel it though
I know it must be
the killing time
unwillingly mine
fate up against your will
through the thick and thin
you will wait until
you give yourself to him
in scarlet nights I saw you
so cruelly you kissed me
your lips and magic world
your sky all hung with jewels
the killing...
You'll get tired of hearing this...
but damned if I don’t miss Michael so much it’s killing me. For those who don’t know, this is actually my 3rd marriage. First marriage? Both too immature to be married. Second marriage? Abusive husband and too many bruises to forgive. This one though… I searched long and hard for him. My soul is not complete when he is not around. It hurts worse than anything I could ever...
